In 2015 I took a huge risk. I started to share my own personal work in a blog.
This blog was not about business, like I had blogged before.
In those early blogging days, I became a part of a 30 day blogging challenge created by Bradley Wills. A part of this challenge, for me, was to come out of hiding and allow myself to be seen. I accepted the challenge of sharing some of my stories, artist books, and poetry that had never been made public before. I was going to let my readers come “inside” to my hidden places.
I often felt afraid. I was moving deeper and further into my path as a writer and a creative.
I was letting myself be seen.
I have been writing for a very long time.
I have been published in a variety of ways.
But what I was about to share was my very personal works. I began to write about various aspects of my life that people might not know:
I wrote about being a synaesthete, one who sees color when I hear music and tastes emotions.
I shared some of my one of kind artist books.
I wrote about intuitive writing and being a person of dreams.
I shared poetry that I had hidden away.
I began allowing my readers to have a deeper glimpse about who I am.
Sharing this work on social media changed me.
Every time I hit the “post” or “publish” button I felt that terror. The fear of rejection would rise up.
I know this may surprise some. So many think that I am fearless.
I am not. And this is why I am so passionate about supporting other writers. Writing is not an easy work.
I remember setting up my website.
I remember learning how to create links and use my own photos as I entered into a land that seemed scary and odd.
Traveling through Cyberspace was the beginning of a life changing journey.
I have come home to my true calling. I am so grateful that you are all part of this.
I thought you might enjoy looking at one of my first posts during that time.
I remember how this journey felt like one of those dreams where you are driving a car and then you realize that you are naked. And so I was. I was allowing myself a deeper level of vulnerability than what was in my comfort zone. I feel that way sometimes, even now.
This is a dangerously courageous journey for me, to fully “return home” to my arts and my true self.
I cannot go deeper in my teachings without continuing to do my own work.
And yes, I understand how tempting it is to stay in the “safe zones.” But we don’t grown here. We have choices to make.
And long ago I learned that honesty is the very best way to live our lives.
Here is that original post, Allowing Myself To Be Seen, Part One.
I have continued on. In this life journey of writing there is an unfurling of self discovery.
The more we are willing to be transparent, the more we become a hollow reed where creativity can move through us.
I don’t believe there are magic formulas or buttons to press.
Instead there is a willingness to let the outer facade fall away and we allow our authenticity to be seen.
Are you courageous enough to walk this path?
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